Lately I’ve been battling a case of self-doubt. I’m not so sure of myself anymore. I feel like I’m just not good enough. I remember one day in particular when I just felt….blah. I had a big test that morning and I was up late the night before studying. It wasn’t a terrible day, but it wasn’t great either. Like I said before – blah. Anyway, I got through my morning and it was finally fifth period – lunch. I was buying lunch that day, so I went up and got my meal as usual. When I went to pay, something happened that turned my whole day around. I handed my money to Mrs. Brown, who happened to be filling in that day, and when she handed me my change, she said to me, “You know, you always have a smile on your face. Thank you.” This may seem silly, but that simple compliment, a thank you for smiling, for doing something that just comes naturally, for just being me, made me feel….lighter. Like a weight had been lifted off my shoulders.
I thought about what Mrs. Brown said the rest of the afternoon. And I still think about it sometimes, whenever I lose confidence in myself. It made me realize how lucky I am to have Villa, and everyone who is a part of it, in my life. That day really made think. There are so many things in my life that I take for granted. I need to learn to appreciate the small stuff. We all do. And one day, hopefully, we “will understand how precious little things, seemingly of no value in themselves, can be loved and prized above all price when they convey the love and thoughtfulness of a good heart” (Edwin Booth).
- Sydney Amspacher ’17